I wrote this when I was at a very low point in my life. I’ve since risen to the occasion and stayed positive, but I believe that seeing another person’s weakness and pain can help us gain a new perspective. So here goes nothing:
i’m at a point where words don’t help
sure, i know you mean them, but do you really care?
there is always that little bit of laughter that you get to enjoy, but i just have to endure
because i can’t enjoy it
not when i feel like this
i can pretend & people believe, but yet they don’t really see
see how i really am
see that even though i smile, my eyes are sad
people say eyes are the window to the soul but oh boy, i hope that’s not true
because if so, one glance into my eyes will show the world i’m drowning.
i’m drowning is sadness & loneliness & pain
sure, my life isn’t terrible, but i just can’t find that joy anymore
i want the joy that makes you numb. the joy that makes it so you can no longer feel the pain